3 posts tagged “love”

What's wrong?

I'm normally the guy that can cheer anyone up. I'm great at it and I have lots of friends to show for it.

But like every hero, there is a weakness. An Achilles' heel.

The one person I want to help the most, just happens to be my kryptonite.

And it's so unfair! I always say the wrong thing, and I don't know why? Normally I play a conversation out in my head, and the real thing tends to swing that way.

But with her? I stumble, I repeat myself, I forget my train of thought, and most of all I let my feelings get in the way.

I'm not saying that I'm madly in love with her, no no no. Maybe. But! I can definitely see the situation that I didn't believe existed, often played in movies, where the boy can't talk to the girl. Ugh, it makes me so angry!

The only solution is to surround myself with this person. Which is working wonders. My head is clearer than it has ever been, I'm no longer the horny Duracell Bunny and I'm finding confidence I never thought I had. I have a best friend!

My biggest problem though is that all this cracks at the thought of being unable to help.

And at the moment I can't help.

And I'm cracking.

Daniel

Three words that can be ever harder to say than "I love you".

     2. "I want you..."
Three words that can make things difficult for all parties to get along.

     3. "I need you..."
Three words that place your world on their shoulders. No one can take that pressure.

     4."I hate you..."
Three words that are the result of saying something stupid. Like any of the first three.

     5. "I love you..."
Three words that speak for themselves.

Talk later, David Tear

I like my shield. It keeps me safe, out of harms reach. I hold it at my hip, ready for anyone around me. When people show me affection, I let a little in. But if I feel like it could hurt me, I quickly shut them out.

I don't like people seeing the real me, which is why I'm always on guard. Smiles, jokes, and my shield at the ready. Able to block even the tamest of advances. I fake my life for everyone's pleasure, but I don't want any of it to be real.

No one is allowed in, my defenses are pristine. But every now and then things go past my eye. People really touch me deep, where nothing is suppose to be. So I quickly push it away, trying to regain my step. Cutting you back out, and rebuilding my defense.

But that feeling has already touched me, and now it's going to hurt me. I hate being on my knees, I hate crying myself to sleep. But that one time you got past my shield you scratched the surface you were never meant to see.

I have never trusted anyone with my heart, and you should do the same. Hell, I send this plea out to every boy and girl, "Don't let yourself be hurt!" Grab a trusty shield like mine and shut everyone out for good. It's the safest way to live, and while you'll never be in love, you'll be happy watching the world around you, and never have to give a stuff.

Talk later, David Tear