23 posts tagged “life”

VPN's are like the best thing ever. Just playing around with my iPhone, and set up my own VPN. VPN stands for Virtual Private Network, which basically means that over the internet I can log into my network at home and use it as if I was attached to my home network. But the main reason for setting it up was for the iPhone.

When attached to a WiFi hot spot, or have 3G reception, I can connect to my PC like I was sitting at the keyboard, using a program called Jaadu.On the iPhone. It's quite nifty really. Quite a few times I have needed to get a picture from home, or lost a USB stick and needed a backup from home. Now I just jump on the iPhone, email myself the file, and voila. For desktop computers there is a "file transfer" option, but as anyone with the iPhone would know, it's no easy feat using the internal memory as a USB drive. So that's out of the question.

That's probably the only bad thing about the iPhone. The fact that it is impossible to save thing to it on the fly. Pictures are the only things capable, and that's due to the cameras "memory card". Basically a section of memory that pictures get saved to.

But all in all, as I type this on my iPhone over a VPN, and send it from my PC at home, I'm a geek at heart, and will always need new gadgets and high tech toys. I may not change until I'm old and wrinkly, but when you have this much fun in life, why would I want to?

Daniel

Ps: Oh my god I can't wait until I'm 30. Imagine all the cool stuff that there will be! *Sigh*
(Not that I'm saying I'll be old and wrinkly by then.)

Back to my home town. Yay.

Struggling to catch up with all my friends, but seen all the important ones already. (Sorry Troy, I'm getting to it)

Been cruising up and down iTunes apps store for new applications to play around with, but I haven't found anything breath taking. Haha.

Got a birthday dinner tonight! So excited, but I'm a little bit slow at the moment on the account of having minimal sleep-in time, so I'm saving all my energy for tonight. Going to be a blasty blast. Off to TacoBill's, so I'm sure there will be fish-bowels. :D

Anyway, back to iTunes store. I'll let you know if I find anything revolutionary.

Daniel

Ps: I need something to turn the iPhone into a removable drive...

What's wrong?

I'm normally the guy that can cheer anyone up. I'm great at it and I have lots of friends to show for it.

But like every hero, there is a weakness. An Achilles' heel.

The one person I want to help the most, just happens to be my kryptonite.

And it's so unfair! I always say the wrong thing, and I don't know why? Normally I play a conversation out in my head, and the real thing tends to swing that way.

But with her? I stumble, I repeat myself, I forget my train of thought, and most of all I let my feelings get in the way.

I'm not saying that I'm madly in love with her, no no no. Maybe. But! I can definitely see the situation that I didn't believe existed, often played in movies, where the boy can't talk to the girl. Ugh, it makes me so angry!

The only solution is to surround myself with this person. Which is working wonders. My head is clearer than it has ever been, I'm no longer the horny Duracell Bunny and I'm finding confidence I never thought I had. I have a best friend!

My biggest problem though is that all this cracks at the thought of being unable to help.

And at the moment I can't help.

And I'm cracking.

Daniel

"We might be in a little bit of a pickle, Dick" - Jane Harper

Guess it'll be fine. Not that complaining about anything, can change anything. Might have to stop going out though. Like all together. But I still feel the need for a wing man. Which sucks. Can't just go about kicking it by myself anymore, I've become strangely attached to social situations.

What happened to the good old days? Ages and ages ago.

Basic layout:
Wake up, alone.
Eat meals, alone.
Snuggle up, alone.
Fall asleep, alone.

Never get bored of being alone.

I was comfortable being alone. Now I'm alone for 1 day, and it gets under my skin. I want to go out all the time. I don't have the money for this, but I don't have the patience to do nothing.

I never say what I need.

I need a distraction. From everything real. Not just this. Everything.

Will you find me a distraction?

Or do I find myself a new wing man?

Daniel.

What's the worst way to end an evening?

Find out your car has been broken into...

Daniel

And just like that, I'm back to sleeping more than 12 hours a night.

Thank you. Your scent makes my eye lids heavy, even when you're not around.

Daniel

When sleep itself stops being second nature, I think it's time to worry.

I can't remember the last time I had a good sleep, which lasted for more than an hour, over a 24 hour period.

I'm not sure if it's because I'm losing my memory or what, but the last "good" sleep was a nap, at a friends house. I'm pretty sure that lasted longer than an hour.

One more night of this and I'm drinking myself to sleep.

How many days before you die of sleep deprivation? How can you tell? I have got to be getting close. But I don't feel tired. Is that a side affect? Will I just drop dead one day?

Daniel.

I'd like to think that I have grown up a lot since I was 18.

I tend to take a lot more control in a relationship these days.

I also know when to quit.

I know when to give up.

When to say goodbye.

That doesn't mean, though, that I want to.

Or can.

But it does feel like anything I do works out to be bad for me.

1. Put in the effort    - Waste of time.
2. Simply wait         - Blows up in my face.
3. Walk away          - Leave something behind.
4. Move on              - Turning my back.

I can't win, and if by fuck, is it making this a shitty fucking week.

Daniel.

I'm confused.

But on to other things, saw Monsters vs Aliens yesterday, and I must admit that the graphics were insanely real. The hamburger at the beginning, for example, looked so good I wanted to eat it.

While the rest of the movie followed your average kids movie story line, it was both funny and enjoyable, I was glad I saw it when I did, with who I did.

As for other life experiences right now, I think I'm in Purgatory. Can't go back and unable to move forward. It'll pass, but while I'm here, it's epic Sucks-ville.

Ho-hum, a pirates life for me... Zzzz...

Talk later, Daniel

Ever.

At the end of the day when you're sitting with the people you love most, you'll all wish you could have done more.

"What if I had taken that year off to travel abroad?"
"What if I hadn't decided to get this tattoo on my back?" (Which I still love by the way)
"What if I hadn't waited this long to hear back?"
"What if I chased that girl?"

Whatever crosses your mind, you have to take it and go with it. (Not those crazy "I wonder if anyone would care if I ran into oncoming traffic at 100km/h." or "I wish I was dead.")

If you miss someone make an effort to see them. If you love someone make an effort to show them. If you need someone... (Try not to be too needy. Haha, you know what I mean)

One thing I must say; Through all the friend I have made at school, at work, through friends, and out on the town, I thank you for making me the person I am today. I am never afraid to make a friend. Never afraid to reconnect with old friends. Hell, I'm not even going to say no to someone else's friends. And most importantly, always able to cross bridges I never knew were still there....

Talk later, David Tear

PS: Never change because you feel you have to, and never settle for second best. Promise?