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Bang bang bang...

Daniel

Ps: I try to never say never.

Well the week is nearly over.

And so far it has been amazing.

Picked up an iPhone on the 26th. Which is what I'm using to write this blog. And it's amazing. Haha. Can't believe it has taken me this long to get one.

Went to the gym, with my uncle Adam, on the 29th. He is a fittness instructor, and has his own class called Body Attack. Which is exactly what it is. Set up like an arobics class, he had over 100 people the class, and proceeded to kill everyone with his routine. Very intense.

Now today just out with grandma shopping, and resting. (don't want to buy anything)

I wish I wasn't so home sick. I miss all my mates so (fucking) much.

I'm also over this single business. And being hit on in a different state just makes it worse. I want to be madly in love with somebody that has that same intense feeling for me.

Ho hum. Life's a beach..

Daniel

Ps: A shit beach. Filled with shit times. God damn I need "mate" time.

I'm so glad I'm in Canberra.

Unfortunately though, Sex in the City is on. And it's just making me shudder...

I wish I had already met the one. Then I wouldn't have this problem, and I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. Let me just get it out of my head. I'm getting an iPhone as soon as I can. Retail therapy, and I'll be fixed.

Yes it's that easy. I have a lot of expensive things to prove it. Which I no longer think is a good thing...

Daniel

Well, there is no apology.

A hypocrite is a hypocrite apparently, and while pursuing that option helped a lot with what I was going through at the time, it's no excuse for going against basically everything I believe in. Ugh, I just wish I never got to that point again. I'll admit, talking about it made me uneasy, but I guess it opened me up to people's need for wanting something like that.

I'd say I'm a little less judgmental now, but it definitely wasn't something for me. I will say, though, that it halted a bad trip down memory lane. I have other things to remind me of that.

On a lighter note, going to Canberra to see my uncle today. Going to be awesome! Can't wait. Pretty much relying on this to stop the cracks.

Until I get back, unless I post while I'm away, I'll talk to you later.

Daniel

What's wrong?

I'm normally the guy that can cheer anyone up. I'm great at it and I have lots of friends to show for it.

But like every hero, there is a weakness. An Achilles' heel.

The one person I want to help the most, just happens to be my kryptonite.

And it's so unfair! I always say the wrong thing, and I don't know why? Normally I play a conversation out in my head, and the real thing tends to swing that way.

But with her? I stumble, I repeat myself, I forget my train of thought, and most of all I let my feelings get in the way.

I'm not saying that I'm madly in love with her, no no no. Maybe. But! I can definitely see the situation that I didn't believe existed, often played in movies, where the boy can't talk to the girl. Ugh, it makes me so angry!

The only solution is to surround myself with this person. Which is working wonders. My head is clearer than it has ever been, I'm no longer the horny Duracell Bunny and I'm finding confidence I never thought I had. I have a best friend!

My biggest problem though is that all this cracks at the thought of being unable to help.

And at the moment I can't help.

And I'm cracking.

Daniel

Transformers. Today. At 11:30.

I'm up already. Sleep is for suckers.

"I'm going to need more that a mop and bucket for this mess. I'm gonna need help." - Lost individual

I'm getting it from all directions. Never even saw it coming, and can't do anything about it...

Daniel

Sandy Rivers: "We should have sex!"

Robin: "What?!?!"

Sandy Rivers: "Why not, we’re both available, we’re both attractive, we’re both good at it, at least I’m good at it, and even if you’re not, don’t worry, I’ll have a good time either way."

Robin: "Well moving past the horrifying image of your hair helmet clanging against the headboard, I don’t get involved with people I work with."

Sandy Rivers: "Get involved? Who said get involved? I'm just saying we should have sex! Having sex is fun!"

Daniel.

In random order, I present my ideas:
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I'd like this one, without the two guys in the background. They ruin it... :(

"We might be in a little bit of a pickle, Dick" - Jane Harper

Guess it'll be fine. Not that complaining about anything, can change anything. Might have to stop going out though. Like all together. But I still feel the need for a wing man. Which sucks. Can't just go about kicking it by myself anymore, I've become strangely attached to social situations.

What happened to the good old days? Ages and ages ago.

Basic layout:
Wake up, alone.
Eat meals, alone.
Snuggle up, alone.
Fall asleep, alone.

Never get bored of being alone.

I was comfortable being alone. Now I'm alone for 1 day, and it gets under my skin. I want to go out all the time. I don't have the money for this, but I don't have the patience to do nothing.

I never say what I need.

I need a distraction. From everything real. Not just this. Everything.

Will you find me a distraction?

Or do I find myself a new wing man?

Daniel.